Wow. I SUCK at blogging, I really do. Well heres a quick wrap up of the past few months
1. In July Wes came home from deployment, it was one of best days ever!
2. In August we started fertility treatment, I found out a few things I have PCOS, honestly i never would have guessed, Im thin, have normal cycles, and havent had any ovary pain since i was 16 when i had 1 large cyst. I also have a underactive thyroid, again im thin i never would have guessed that either, I also have a condition called Low Protein S, Basically its a blood clotting disorder. Combine everything together and its a miracle ive ever gotten pregnant, and obivious why its extremely hard for me to stay pregnant. So after all the testing was done, we were given the cost, The overwhelming heartbreaking cost of treatment. Even with our insurance we couldnt afford it, So we gave up hope and quit trying.
3. In September, I knew something was off, I took a pregnancy test, it was positive! They joy was very shortly lived, i lost all my pregnancy symptoms and tests turned to negative a few days later, Ultrasound showed a empty sac, then nothing.
4. In earlyOctober my period is still not arrived, I had a elevated body temp, Pregnancy symptoms, I thought it was all in my head, i was sure of it. I had a arguement about taking a test with Wes at like 1am, because I was burning up, Im only hot when im pregnant he said and after about 5 minutes i said fine, I went upstairs to take a test, it was a digital test, They take forever to pop up not pregnant, and if your pregnant they pop up really fast it wasnt even 30 seconds and it said PREGNANT. I literally gasped, Wes yelled I TOLD YOU, from downstairs. We sat on the stairs in disbelief for a really long time, I went back to my Dr the next day, Ultrasound showed nothing, My HCG was 67. I went back 2 days later it was a huge jump to 1200. then 4700 2 days after that. I had a repeat ultrasound 4 days after my first, there was a sac! 1 week later, a tiny little baby and yoksac. Another week went by and that ultrasound showed us the very long awaited heartbeat, i have never felt better in my life seeing that tiny little pulse, Every time before Since i had Madeline, there was no heartbeat, so that was our point where we could get excited. We repeated ultrasounds every 2 weeks since then, Its amazing to see our little baby grow, Its a relief. I went though alot of pain and being terrified this entire time, Lucky for me because the fertility drs ive seen are great at treating women with recurrent miscarriages i was given the medications i needed to help our baby grow, but Im now exiting our first trimester, My hyperemesis is under control and i have hope its going to be gone soon, My cervix is a normal length, My orthostatic hypotension is getting less frequent,And my drs are very confident that soon this pregnancy will be no longer considered high risk, and are on board with my plans to homebirth.
I guess im not longer knocked down, Just knocked up, and thats just the way I like it.
